I’m certain that I like winter more than summer, all comfy and snuggly, but sometimes, there is this sinking feeling inside of me, that spreads a cold, colder than normal, all over and around me.
I don’t know if you understand this feeling, but it just breaks me down, it brings out isolation in a creepier way like everything is lost, that all around me is sadness. And it takes a lot of time to get away, it stays, for a dangerously longer period than I’d expect and keeps me incredibly sad.
It wears off, though slowly, but it does. And then the night falls, I’m back to the silence, confined within four walls while everyone else sleeps, and then it comes back, the sinking feeling.
I’m certain that I like winter better than summer, but this is something I never feel in the summers. This feeling that I’m feeling right now, this coldness, even though the sun is up, even though I’m standing in the sun, and it’s still not going away.
Do you feel it too?